‘The Voice’ Star Kelly Clarkson Says She Feels ‘Alone’ During the Holidays After Divorce

by Leanne Stahulak
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This Christmas won’t be quite the same for “The Voice” coach and country star Kelly Clarkson, who’s in the midst of a messy divorce from Brandon Blackstock.

The pair were married for almost seven years, and they had two children together, seven-year-old River and five-year-old Remington. Clarkson’s really been through it this year, experiencing a swirl of emotions. She opened up about those emotions on her new holiday series, “Kelly Clarkson Presents: When Christmas Comes Around.”

“For me, this Christmas looks and feels a lot different than when I wrote (Underneath the Tree),” Clarkson says at the beginning of the Dec. 1 episode. “And that’s alright. The beauty of this season is we get to feel everything. Joy, longing, maybe even a little sadness.”

Later on in the episode, per Page Six, “The Voice” coach dives into how she channeled those emotions into a new song and album. Check out the powerful and emotional song, “Merry Christmas (To the One I Used to Know)” for yourself below.

‘The Voice’ Coach Kelly Clarkson Discusses ‘Feeling Alone’ at Christmastime

“The Voice” coach Kelly Clarkson introduces her song by saying, “The holidays come with a whole range of emotions. I’m gonna be real with y’all: When I wrote this next song, I was crying my face off, which happens even at Christmastime, everyone.”

The holidays aren’t always bright and cheery for everyone. Especially when you lose the people you’d usually share it with.

“I had just put my kids to bed, and I was just going through it, having a really hard time,” Clarkson continued. “It’s been a really tough year for a lot of us. And I wrote this song for me, but also because there aren’t many holiday songs for people feeling alone or lost or just plain sad — other than Dolly Parton’s classic ‘Hard Candy Christmas,’ which we all love.”

“The Voice” coach wrapped up the introduction by saying how she “loves” Parton’s sad Christmas tune and how it “allowed” Clarkson to write “Merry Christmas (To the One I Used to Know).”

When you listen to the song, several moments punch you right in the gut. Especially the line where she sings, “You aren’t the one I’m missing, he left long ago // But Christmas eve my gift to me is dancing with your ghost.” You can’t help but tear up when you listen to the haunting lyrics combined with Clarkson’s gorgeous voice.

And watching the performance, you can see how the song really affects “The Voice” coach too. She gets a little choked up while explaining how she wrote the song. And right at the end, during the final line, Clarkson pauses to visibly compose herself before delivering the final lyrics.