Dave Grohl Speaks Out About the Day After Former Nirvana Bandmate Kurt Cobain Died

by Josh Lanier
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Kurt Cobain, the alternative rock genius legend and leader of the mega-successful Nirvana, committed suicide on April 5, 1994. The next day Dave Grohl, the band’s drummer, said he become untethered and lost himself in grief.

“I didn’t really have a plan,” he said. “When everything’s sort of turned upside down and shaken up like that, you just wake up every day thinking, ‘Who am I, where am I, what am I doing?’ … I remember the day after Kurt died, how strange it felt to wake up knowing he wasn’t with us anymore and that I had another day. Like, okay, so what am I going to do with today?

“I believe it was then that I started to realize, ‘Oh, okay, you have to do everything once again. Meaning like, I have to make a pot of coffee and this is my first pot of coffee since Kurt’s gone. I have to go upstairs and get dressed. This is the first thing I’ll wear since Kurt has been gone. It goes like that. I honestly don’t know what I did. It was months and months and months.”

Dave Grohl Figures Out How to Rock On

Kurt Cobain had struggled with addiction and depression, but his death was still a complete shock to his friends and fans alike. Cobain was Nirvana so going forward with another frontman felt wrong. But Dave Grohl still wanted to play music. He still had a lot to say, he told his biographer Paul Brannigan in 2009.

He also felt that fans might feel angry or upset with him for moving on. So he slowly and quietly started to write music and record songs. After several months he’d accumulated enough for an album. He passed it around with friends and executives and they loved it. He formed Foo Fighters and became one of the most beloved singers in rock.

“For years, I was so self-conscious on stage, like ‘I know I don’t sound good, but how do I look? How do I hold my guitar? Do I do it like this? How do I move?'” he told Reel Stories.

“I wasn’t ever in the moment, I was just so afraid. And then something clicked, where I was like ‘You know what? I’m not wasting this moment on being nervous, or scared. I’m gonna walk out there like Julius f****** Caesar.'”