“I’m constantly trying to fight fear in my life,” Robertson said. “It was like, so many emotions happening that I couldn’t really fight the fear like I normally do. All of a sudden, I was just in a state of anxiety. I didn’t even realize that it was creeping up as much as it was.”
Since the Duck Dynasty daughter gave birth to her daughter, Honey, she admitted that she constantly fears for the infant’s safety.
“I just said, ‘I’m so scared. I’m so scared that something is going to happen to her,’” Robertson recalled. “It was so real. I was like, ‘I’m so scared that something is going to happen to her. I’m so scared that she’s not really OK. What if whenever she got stuck [during delivery], the oxygen actually cut off to her head. I’m scared that something happens to me and I am not going to get to be the mom that I want to be to her.”
She called it a “toxic brain spiral” that shows itself in different ways.
Though, she said, Honey brings her joy and happiness that she thought unimaginable before.
“I didn’t understand how I could be so happy and so joyful, yet also experience so much fear,” Robertson explained. “I realized that you don’t have to choose just one of those feelings. You don’t have to choose fear and trade out all the joy. You don’t have to choose joy and trade out all the fear. It can actually go hand in hand.”
Duck Dynasty’s Sadie Robertson Details Birth Story
Robertson Huff wasn’t just being anxious about Honey’s birth. Things nearly went very badly, she said. That’s because Honey’s shoulder got caught on Robertson Huff’s hip bone during delivery. To make matters worse, the umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck, as well.
“All of a sudden I was pushed down on the bed, they pushed my mom out of the way and every nurse in the room was just over me, and they were pulling my legs and pushing my stomach as hard as they could. I thought they cut me open because of how painful it was when they pressed on my stomach. Now I know they were pressing my pelvis bone to get her out because what happened was Honey got stuck. Her shoulder got stuck,” Robertson Huff said, according to US Weekly.
Thankfully, the quick intervention of the delivery team saved both mom and baby who are both thriving today.